Trusting (After Sexual Abuse)

After experiencing Sexual Abuse, Incest, Betrayal and Manipulation, TRUSTING someone, especially a MALE was never a good trait of mine. Even today, I still have a sense of not feeling 100% safe in a relationship. I have truly forgiven my abusers, but if you have ever been abused then you are aware of TRIGGERS and how they can make one fault short from time to time. I don't have a problem trusting one to be faithful or have my back, it's the TRUST word as a whole and does this person really understand how devastating LIES, BETRAYAL and DECEIT is to me. Those are 3 things I just cannot tolerate. I have never really felt safe with any man, and today, the young man I'm dating, he really does makes me feel safe,  however, I still have those doubts of him possibly betraying me. But the good thing is I never allow those doubts to surface and manifest in our relationship.

Trust is a very important factor in a relationship and I refuse to allow my past DECEPTIONS and ABUSE placed upon me to be the reason I can't have a successful relationship. So what do I do, I pray, I pray and ask GOD to give me faith in his eyes, trust and understanding of what LOVE really is. TRUSTING is part of LOVING your mate. So with that, I trust that GOD will speak to me if HE senses danger, and this time I WILL LISTEN...

In essence, if  you been betrayed and have TRUST issues, I ask you to WALK and LIVE by FAITH. Mainly because, what if he/she DOES NOT betray you, What if he/she DOES, either way YOU can't control it, so why worry or stress another human out for what someone else did. The only actions you can control is your ability to trust and have faith. SO START TRUSTING, HAVE FAITH and SPARE yourself some unnecessary mental anguish.

Please feel free to share your thoughts....